Forgiveness is a tough pill to swallow (PT. II)

So in my personal time, my daily readings, my daily scriptures, etc...the theme of forgiveness has repeatedly come up...this is nothing new for me...however, the "issue" that I have is the fact that I think in the past 7-10 days every time I've come across a message or scripture about forgiveness a different person's face pops into my heart/mind.  What's crazy is these are people that I have no idea why I need to forgive them, like there is no foreseeable issues that we have.  What I do know and can say is that I am a huge grudge holder and that could very well be the reason for these "pop ups" I can't say for sure that I know what each "grudge" is that I am holding but I know a few and so I've gotta go back to the drawing board with this whole "forgiveness" bit.  I think that forgiveness is such a hard issue for me simply because I feel like my decisions, actions and reactions are directly linked to my emotions.  I'm pretty good at getting past things in the initial moments that follow a situation but I also realize that my "getting past" things is to keep forward movement happening, but, the forward movement seems to happen for everyone but me because in reality I'm not truly forgiving people, more or less, I am just putting a band-aid on a issue that requires much more. So I guess what I'm learning needs to be done for myself, and maybe even for others, is to address my issues with people and deal with them so that I can truly move forward.

Until Next Time...