1 Blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven, 2 Blessed is the man to whom the Lord does not impute iniquity, And in whose spirit there is no deceit.3 When I kept silent, my bones grew old Through my groaning all the day long.
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Forgiveness Day 13: Matthew 6: 14-15
Matthew 6: 14-15
14 For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 15 But if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.
Forgiveness Day 12: Isaiah 53: 10-11
Isaiah 53: 10-11
10 Yet it pleased the Lord to bruise him; he hath put him to grief: when thou shalt make his soul an offering for sin, he shall see his seed, he shall prolong his days, and the pleasure of the Lord shall prosper in his hand.11 He shall see of the travail of his soul, and shall be satisfied: by his knowledge shall my righteous servant justify many; for he shall bear their iniquities.
Forgiveness Day 11: Psalms 103: 8, 10, 12
Psalms 103:8
8 The Lord is merciful and gracious, Slow to anger, and abounding in mercy.
10 He has not dealt with us according to our sins, Nor punished us according to our iniquities.
12 As far as the east is from the west, So far has He removed our transgressions from us.
Forgiveness Day 10: Colossians 3: 12-14
Colossians 3: 12-14
Character of the New Man
12 Therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved, put on tender mercies, kindness, humility, meekness, longsuffering;13 bearing with one another, and forgiving one another, if anyone has a complaint against another; even as Christ forgave you, so you also must do.14 But above all these things put on love, which is the bond of perfection.Forgiveness Day 9: Isaiah 38: 16-17
Isaiah 38: 16-17
16 O Lord, by these things men live; And in all these things is the life of my spirit; So You will restore me and make me live.17 Indeed it was for my own peace That I had great bitterness; But You have lovingly delivered my soul from the pit of corruption, For You have cast all my sins behind Your back.
Forgiveness Day 8
Matthew 26: 26-28
26 And as they were eating, Jesus took bread, and blessed it, and brake it, and gave it to the disciples, and said, Take, eat; this is my body.27 And he took the cup, and gave thanks, and gave it to them, saying, Drink ye all of it;28 For this is my blood of the new testament, which is shed for many for the remission of sins.
26 And as they were eating, Jesus took bread, and blessed it, and brake it, and gave it to the disciples, and said, Take, eat; this is my body.27 And he took the cup, and gave thanks, and gave it to them, saying, Drink ye all of it;28 For this is my blood of the new testament, which is shed for many for the remission of sins.
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Forgiveness Day 6 & 7: Matthew 5: 5-7 & Psalms 25: 16-18
Matthew 5: 5-7
5 Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth.6 Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.7 Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.
Psalms 25:16-18
16 Turn thee unto me, and have mercy upon me; for I am desolate and afflicted.17 The troubles of my heart are enlarged: O bring thou me out of my distresses.18 Look upon mine affliction and my pain; and forgive all my sins.
My Reflection(s):
The last day or two I've been in an interesting place. I venture to say its been a prolonged moment that is making my forgiveness journey hard. I have been having a bit of a tough time sleeping and I'm not really an advocate for sleeping pills or other sleep inducing medication unless it is absolutely necessary. I feel like I could possibly be approaching that point simply because of the lack of sleep I'm getting.
Day 6's scripture is taken in part from the Beatitudes. Verse 7 is what sticks out most to me, "blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy." It speaks to the simple premise that in order to be forgiven we must forgive. All I can say is that its a work in progress for me. Good days...bad days...its a daily struggle.
Day 7 is pretty much a direct hit as to where I feel like I am right now. Like I'm at the point where I'm all but begging for 2 things from Daddy...to be forgiven and to have a heart that forgives.
My Prayer:
Daddy,
Today my prayer is simple yet complex but we know nothing is too hard for You. I want to be able to forgive, to move on, and to let go of these issues I've got going on right now. I want a heart that forgives. I REALLY want to be able to move past this Daddy...it has been too long for this thing to keep affecting me like it does. I want to be able to love without pretense. I want to be able to open my heart completely. I want to be able to trust wholeheartedly. I NEED to be able to forgive. I know that I'll probably never forget but all I ask is for the ability to be able to live with the memories without it affecting my now. I want to be able to help another man/woman/boy/girl walk this path of forgiveness. I'm a willing vessel...use me as You see fit.
Monday, December 19, 2011
Forgiveness Day 5: Psalms145: 17-19
Psalms 145: 17-19
17 The Lord is righteous in all His ways, Gracious in all His works.18 The Lord is near to all who call upon Him, To all who call upon Him in truth.19 He will fulfill the desire of those who fear Him; He also will hear their cry and save them.
My Reflection(s):
Okay...so I'm really really really late with this post for two reasons, the first being that I had no intentions of writing a post at all but apparently Daddy has other plans, secondly, I had to sort some things out mentally before I could start my post...so here we go...
I still don't really have a reflection per say...today wasn't a good day or a bad day...it was just a day. I'm grateful for each and every day I see and for the opportunity to do better than the day before...so I guess that's about all for my update...
My Prayer:
Daddy,
this forgiveness thing is a journey unlike any other I've experienced thus far in life. I want and need to move beyond a lot that was handed to me in life and I'm working hard to do that...I pray that You continue to shower me with your grace and mercy and love. I am trusting you with my heart ...I know its something I struggle with...I just pray you continue to cover me and show me who to open my heart to and what to dedicate myself, my life, and my heart to...
Until Next Time...
17 The Lord is righteous in all His ways, Gracious in all His works.18 The Lord is near to all who call upon Him, To all who call upon Him in truth.19 He will fulfill the desire of those who fear Him; He also will hear their cry and save them.
My Reflection(s):
Okay...so I'm really really really late with this post for two reasons, the first being that I had no intentions of writing a post at all but apparently Daddy has other plans, secondly, I had to sort some things out mentally before I could start my post...so here we go...
I still don't really have a reflection per say...today wasn't a good day or a bad day...it was just a day. I'm grateful for each and every day I see and for the opportunity to do better than the day before...so I guess that's about all for my update...
My Prayer:
Daddy,
this forgiveness thing is a journey unlike any other I've experienced thus far in life. I want and need to move beyond a lot that was handed to me in life and I'm working hard to do that...I pray that You continue to shower me with your grace and mercy and love. I am trusting you with my heart ...I know its something I struggle with...I just pray you continue to cover me and show me who to open my heart to and what to dedicate myself, my life, and my heart to...
Until Next Time...
Sunday, December 18, 2011
Forgiveness Day 4 - Psalms 86:3-5
Psalm 86:3-5
Be merciful to me, O Lord, For I cry to You all day long. Rejoice the soul of Your servant, For to You, O Lord, I lift up my soul. For You, Lord, are good, and ready to forgive, And abundant in mercy to all those who call upon You.
My reflections:
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Saturday, December 17, 2011
Forgiveness Day 3: Job 14: 16-17
16 For now You number my steps, But do not watch over my sin. 17 My transgression is sealed up in a bag, And You cover my iniquity.
My Reflection:
I absolutely was not going to do a post today at all and truth be told, this post is actually coming before the time I actually set aside to do my daily reading. I was feeling a certain kind of way yesterday/earlier this morning and to be COMPLETELY honest and transparent, I am still feeling a certain kind of way but considering that I have not been to sleep yet, I'm going to yield to Daddy and write this blog (and whatever else He wants me to) so that eventually I can get some sleep. I am not in a happy place...I am not in a very forgiving mood...toward myself or toward others right now...
Over the course of the last 2.5-3 hours I had two very different conversation with two very different people. My friend (Nikki Mack) has been a very present force in my life the last few weeks/months and another friend of mine both seemed to have a lot to say about a particular status I posted on facebook. Now while I can say both of these conversation started off similar they took two very different turns, but some how, kind of parked in the same neighborhood so I'm gonna venture to say that that had everything to do with Daddy and His plan for me.
I am really trying to find that place where I am happy and content with what is going on in and around my life. I need to be able to truly be okay with the people and situations that I say I'm okay with. I need my words and actions to lined up. I need my heart and mind to be on one accord. More than anything I need to walk in a light that provides a shining example for my baby girls, those around me and those who look up to me. I want and need to find that happy medium to function in.
So my prayer...
Daddy,
You know what's going on inside my heart, that which I can articulate and that which I can't. I need You to fix it because no one else can. I've tried and I've failed time and time again. I'm tired of hurting, I'm tired of going in circles. Let this be the last time I have to take this test and let me take it and pass it in a way that everyone knows that it is only by Your love, grace, and mercy that I've moved on and that I'm moving forward with my life. I am ready and willing to be a living testimony for you....
Until Next Time....
My Reflection:
I absolutely was not going to do a post today at all and truth be told, this post is actually coming before the time I actually set aside to do my daily reading. I was feeling a certain kind of way yesterday/earlier this morning and to be COMPLETELY honest and transparent, I am still feeling a certain kind of way but considering that I have not been to sleep yet, I'm going to yield to Daddy and write this blog (and whatever else He wants me to) so that eventually I can get some sleep. I am not in a happy place...I am not in a very forgiving mood...toward myself or toward others right now...
Over the course of the last 2.5-3 hours I had two very different conversation with two very different people. My friend (Nikki Mack) has been a very present force in my life the last few weeks/months and another friend of mine both seemed to have a lot to say about a particular status I posted on facebook. Now while I can say both of these conversation started off similar they took two very different turns, but some how, kind of parked in the same neighborhood so I'm gonna venture to say that that had everything to do with Daddy and His plan for me.
I am really trying to find that place where I am happy and content with what is going on in and around my life. I need to be able to truly be okay with the people and situations that I say I'm okay with. I need my words and actions to lined up. I need my heart and mind to be on one accord. More than anything I need to walk in a light that provides a shining example for my baby girls, those around me and those who look up to me. I want and need to find that happy medium to function in.
So my prayer...
Daddy,
You know what's going on inside my heart, that which I can articulate and that which I can't. I need You to fix it because no one else can. I've tried and I've failed time and time again. I'm tired of hurting, I'm tired of going in circles. Let this be the last time I have to take this test and let me take it and pass it in a way that everyone knows that it is only by Your love, grace, and mercy that I've moved on and that I'm moving forward with my life. I am ready and willing to be a living testimony for you....
Until Next Time....
Friday, December 16, 2011
Forgiveness Day 2: Hebrews 10: 10-11
Hebrews 10: 10-11
10 By that will we have been sanctified through the offering of the body of Jesus Christ once for all. 11 And every priest stands ministering daily and offering repeatedly the same sacrifices, which can never take away sins.
My Reflection:
In order to really grab the gist of this text, I had to go back and read a little more of chapter 10. This chapter basically highlights the fact that animal sacrifices will no longer be acceptable in that Christ dies on the cross for all sins and he was and is the perfect sacrifice.
I struggled with even logging on to write this post because today was/is not a good day. Didn't sleep the best but that wasn't really my struggling point because I don't really sleep a lot anyway...my struggle really came in that I had like a really good day yesterday...I was super geeked about the progress I was making as far as my issue and my forgiveness and then last night/this morning something shift and anger/hate/bitterness started rising up and I just don't know right now. I felt a little bit defeated because of this whole up and down thing. I know people told me it wouldn't be an easy walk and I know that I'd have good days and bad days but I didn't think they'd be so extreme or so close together...I expected a period of good/great days and then maybe a day or two of bad ones....
My prayer for today is kinda simple....Lord, if I can't feel good about this...I don't want to feel anything at all. I know that it is kind of selfish but I really want to be in a good place about this situation God and right now I'm not, so numb me to it.
Until next time....
10 By that will we have been sanctified through the offering of the body of Jesus Christ once for all. 11 And every priest stands ministering daily and offering repeatedly the same sacrifices, which can never take away sins.
My Reflection:
In order to really grab the gist of this text, I had to go back and read a little more of chapter 10. This chapter basically highlights the fact that animal sacrifices will no longer be acceptable in that Christ dies on the cross for all sins and he was and is the perfect sacrifice.
I struggled with even logging on to write this post because today was/is not a good day. Didn't sleep the best but that wasn't really my struggling point because I don't really sleep a lot anyway...my struggle really came in that I had like a really good day yesterday...I was super geeked about the progress I was making as far as my issue and my forgiveness and then last night/this morning something shift and anger/hate/bitterness started rising up and I just don't know right now. I felt a little bit defeated because of this whole up and down thing. I know people told me it wouldn't be an easy walk and I know that I'd have good days and bad days but I didn't think they'd be so extreme or so close together...I expected a period of good/great days and then maybe a day or two of bad ones....
My prayer for today is kinda simple....Lord, if I can't feel good about this...I don't want to feel anything at all. I know that it is kind of selfish but I really want to be in a good place about this situation God and right now I'm not, so numb me to it.
Until next time....
Thursday, December 15, 2011
...I Forgive You...
I think this particular post is one that will have to be repeated several times...why...because I said so...no seriously though...the reason why is because there will be good days and there will be bad days...but this is me taking the first step...
Dear B.C.,
I forgive you. I swore I never would, but, I'm learning more and more each day that the hurt and pain, the bitterness and anger, the unforgiveness that I am harboring toward you is not doing anything to harm or hurt you but it is causing hurt and harm in my own life and possibly even the lives of those that I love so I am taking the first step to say that I forgive you.
Do I know why you did what did?
No.
Do I want to know?
Absolutely.
Do I need to know?
I'm not sure anymore.
This is a place that I never expected to get in life. I never thought I could think about you or that situation and be okay...I never thought that I could be in a place where I was wrecked with tears and all but cussing God out, but, today happens to be a really good day...and on really good days...we take progress by the horns and when run with it so I'm running.
Well...this is just the beginning...
Until Next time...
Love...Peace...&...Poetry
Dear B.C.,
I forgive you. I swore I never would, but, I'm learning more and more each day that the hurt and pain, the bitterness and anger, the unforgiveness that I am harboring toward you is not doing anything to harm or hurt you but it is causing hurt and harm in my own life and possibly even the lives of those that I love so I am taking the first step to say that I forgive you.
Do I know why you did what did?
No.
Do I want to know?
Absolutely.
Do I need to know?
I'm not sure anymore.
This is a place that I never expected to get in life. I never thought I could think about you or that situation and be okay...I never thought that I could be in a place where I was wrecked with tears and all but cussing God out, but, today happens to be a really good day...and on really good days...we take progress by the horns and when run with it so I'm running.
Well...this is just the beginning...
Until Next time...
Love...Peace...&...Poetry
Forgiveness-Day 1-Psalms 25:11-12
Psalms 25:11-12
11 For your names sake, O Lord, Pardon my iniquity, for it is great. 12 Who is the man that fears the Lord? Him shall He teach in the way He chooses.
My Reflection:
The first thing that comes to mind for me when reading this particular passage of text is the fact that we all want, need and require forgiveness. While for many the first step to acquiring that forgiveness, be it from man or from God is that we ask, there are those who don't ask because they don't feel like there is anything to be forgiven for. To this I say...you/I.we are wrong...we all require forgiveness, if from no one else, from God because we have all sinned and fallen short.
Something else this passage required me to do was look within. I know who and what I'm embarking on this journey of forgiveness about, but, I also have to ask myself...are there any people that I owe an apology to? Is there something that I need to say "I'm sorry" to God about. Honestly, I can say that I am sure there are things and while they are not at the forefront of my mind right now, I believe that during the next 40 days they will come to light and I (with God's help) will work through them, seek forgiveness, and cast them into the sea of forgetfulness.
Well....that's day one...
Love...Peace...&...Poetry
11 For your names sake, O Lord, Pardon my iniquity, for it is great. 12 Who is the man that fears the Lord? Him shall He teach in the way He chooses.
My Reflection:
The first thing that comes to mind for me when reading this particular passage of text is the fact that we all want, need and require forgiveness. While for many the first step to acquiring that forgiveness, be it from man or from God is that we ask, there are those who don't ask because they don't feel like there is anything to be forgiven for. To this I say...you/I.we are wrong...we all require forgiveness, if from no one else, from God because we have all sinned and fallen short.
Something else this passage required me to do was look within. I know who and what I'm embarking on this journey of forgiveness about, but, I also have to ask myself...are there any people that I owe an apology to? Is there something that I need to say "I'm sorry" to God about. Honestly, I can say that I am sure there are things and while they are not at the forefront of my mind right now, I believe that during the next 40 days they will come to light and I (with God's help) will work through them, seek forgiveness, and cast them into the sea of forgetfulness.
Well....that's day one...
Love...Peace...&...Poetry
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