Forgiveness Day 6 & 7: Matthew 5: 5-7 & Psalms 25: 16-18

Matthew 5: 5-7

5 Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth.6 Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.7 Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.

 

Psalms 25:16-18

16 Turn thee unto me, and have mercy upon me; for I am desolate and afflicted.17 The troubles of my heart are enlarged: O bring thou me out of my distresses.18 Look upon mine affliction and my pain; and forgive all my sins.

 

My Reflection(s):

 

The last day or two I've been in an interesting place.  I venture to say its been a prolonged moment that is making my forgiveness journey hard.  I have been having a bit of a tough time sleeping and I'm not really an advocate for sleeping pills or other sleep inducing medication unless it is absolutely necessary.  I feel like I could possibly be approaching that point simply because of the lack of sleep I'm getting.

 

Day 6's scripture is taken in part from the Beatitudes.  Verse 7 is what sticks out most to me, "blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy." It speaks to the simple premise that in order to be forgiven we must forgive. All I can say is that its a work in progress for me. Good days...bad days...its a daily struggle.

 

Day 7 is pretty much a direct hit as to where I feel like I am right now. Like I'm at the point where I'm all but begging for 2 things from Daddy...to be forgiven and to have a heart that forgives.

 

My Prayer:

 

Daddy,

Today my prayer is simple yet complex but we know nothing is too hard for You. I want to be able to forgive, to move on, and to let go of these issues I've got going on right now. I want a heart that forgives. I REALLY want to be able to move past this Daddy...it has been too long for this thing to keep affecting me like it does. I want to be able to love without pretense. I want to be able to open my heart completely. I want to be able to trust wholeheartedly. I NEED to be able to forgive. I know that I'll probably never forget but all I ask is for the ability to be able to live with the memories without it affecting my now. I want to be able to help another man/woman/boy/girl walk this path of forgiveness. I'm a willing vessel...use me as You see fit.